had this realization that I think subconsciously my brain treats my life and obligations like some kind of sunken cost fallacy like "no sense in even trying to catch up you're so behind you can't even accomplish anything any time soon"
and like ahaha wow that's uhh not a cool thought
or maybe that's just like, depression lol
good news: the rental company we've been trying to go through approved us on houses up to $2k/mo
bad news: the house we really wanted was $2095/mo lol
good news: we found a cheaper house with a pool although the rooms definitely won't be as big or have as many windows :C
bad news: I still haven't gotten my shit together on application fees so uhh I guess whoaaaa we're halfway there lol
fun back story: one of my friends that used to live here worked at a 3d printing shop that went under because apparently it was a huge scam??? like the owner straight up left the country with a shitload of money and debt?? my friend changed the office keycode and gave me this guitar along with a Whole Ass 3d Printer (that kinda sucked and died eventually but still!) and just lol.
I never had pictures of what it looked like brand new but I found pictures online and god it just fucking sucked lol, it was the guitar equivalent of a frat bro drunkenly getting a tribal tattoo. the design made it look like it was just a bar decoration and that ridge that comes in around the A in the text actually made it uncomfortable to play. It's SO much better now that I've done this work to it.
Really need to shift my brain into work mode but hey did a little self care project I guess to unwind from stress dealing with house application stuff last night that took until today to dry: sanded, reshaped and sealed a guitar a friend gave me a few years ago and it looks so much better than when I was initially given it, I actually want to play it now.
I keep driving myself insane every few years with moving costs bc I always think I'll have more time than I do and then the application comes up and I'm like OH SHIT I THOUGHT I'D HAVE TO PAY FOR THIS LATER OH NO and then have a huge crisis and jesus I'm bad at being an adult ugh. still pushing music sales but in the end I might have to do emergency commissions on top of my queue which I'd EXTREMELY RATHER NOT DO but also like it actually is emergency since we can't stay at our current house
resubmitted application to the house we really wanted but with me and another roommate that weren't on the lease to have the fucked up bad history on the application and it went to final review so we actually might get the house?
WHICH IS GOOD
but also if we actually get approved that means we gotta do the deposit asap before they give the house to someone else and I haven't had time to work up deposit money hhhHHHHHH
twitter link to my tunes/asking for help
hey I know I had y'all boosting me to make emergency money for Dorian but with that out of the way (because it's just one thing after another for me) if you use hellsite still and don't mind telling all your friends that somehow don't have my music yet to check it out to help me move that'd be sick. the reason I push my music so hard is to avoid adding to my art load so my music going off is kinda ideal. please and thanks xoxo
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