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one of the things i didn’t quite expect with coming out as non-binary is just how outright good i feel about it. i haven’t really come out to anyone except my partner, a couple very close friends, and a few online communities and everyone has been surprisingly supportive! and finally feeling valid leaning into mannerisms i’ve suppressed forever is great. and it’s been interesting discussing with my GNC male partner what is the differences are between us

I felt super cute yesterday! someone did say someone that dropped me into a (dysphoric?) spiral for a moment but I did manage to pull out and enjoy the rest of my night.

my partner, contemplating the pin on my bag as i’m walking ahead of him: “I’m not sure if I want a response to this so I’m not going to phrase this as a question. I find it curious you picked a species with such defined sexual dimorphism as you’re concurrently exploring your gender identity.” “are you sure you don’t want feedback on that?” “Uh, yes.”

Coordinating my beer choice in the fridge with my nails and my scarf is a thing

i am soooooo tired of the cold :(

I really should use mastodon for more than just when I feel like I need to hide things behind cws

i’ve been weird and uncomfortable about my body hair since it started growing in in my teens and i finally decided to do something about it and well waxing hurts but I keep feeling my legs and it makes me happy? it’s a really bad patchy wax job because idk wtf im doing but still

@bonzoesc you'll be happy to know i still have your wall street and it still boots. the hard drive is toast though. i found a pile of floppy disks i want to look at so that's why it's out, i just ordered a CF adapter to replace the drive so it may live again!

“What is the bartender’s name, other than ‘dressed like me 12 years ago when I was super depressed’”
“Ken. And he’s pulling that look off.”

I started seeing a therapist to discuss gender identity and depression and adhd but we’ve mostly talked about my relationship with my partner which started falling apart around the same time I started seeing him. my relationship has since stabilized and now I’m having trouble trying to get myself back to discussing the things that brought me here in the first place.

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Puerto Vallarta was fun but I couldn’t get a stiff drink aaaaaanywhere. The snow is terrible but at least my gin and soda has gin in it again

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I want to get out of bed and get a book and come back but this is blocking my way and just starts purring louder when I start to move

so I checked in someone I commissioned a badge from that is well overdue. their twitter is suspended and all their art site accounts deleted. looks like they had been harassing other people pretty horribly and had been called out on it. I think I’ll write off that money as lost but now im apprehensive about doing this again. :/

I finally decided to get on a mastodon instance as the last questionably productive thing I do in 2018. Hooray?