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I'm Vesper! I'm a Bond villain ermine androboy (and in real life I'm a dog sometimes, just to confuse people).

My day job is currently embedded programming, though in my spare time I do game level design, game (+ other) programming, photography, occasional drawing, and am beginning to look into music production. I'm mad on drum & bass, open source, James Bond and Team Fortress 2.

Hoping to ditch Twitter and make this my main online social space!

(Artwork by @demoweasel)

It's just pretty galling. And I know this is all-or-nothing thinking and it doesn't mean it couldn't go anywhere, and that he genuinely does still want to hang out again like we did before, and I'd love to do the same, but just for tonight I want to live and drink in this ever more familiar feeling of being teased by fate, and shout "Fuck you universe" into the void.

I'd been good, not let my OCD obsessiveness run away with me, played it sensibly and patiently, made my absolute best judgements, thought it was actually safe to start believing that maybe there was some potential here for me to take a shot at a relationship that could work. But it's me we're talking about, and there's always something.

He didn't tell me because we'd only talked about going back for one night for some Mutual Interest Snuggles. Honestly I can't blame him, I'd probably have done the same in his position. Nevertheless, I have ended today feeling very mixed up indeed.

I didn't ask immediately because he's doing AC, so I wanted to wait until he's back.

Then today I found out his Howlr bio was out of date somewhat and he's already in an LDR open relationship, with someone he met at CFz. Bit of a rug pull.

By this point I'm thinking:

Cute: tick.
Single: tick.
Easy to talk to: tick.
Similar interests: tick.
Seems to like me as much as I like him: tick. (This last one's fucking rare)
Maybe I should grab this opportunity and see if he wants to do a proper date sometime?

Short story: cute boy and myself connect on Howlr, chat some on Telegram, seem to get on quite well. Meet properly at a furmeet, genuinely get on really well, end up spending the rest of the day and evening hanging out, drinking, some cuddling, getting quite close. I go back to his, *ahemfursuitsahem*, all is grand.

I forgot I still had this account. Time for some incoming minor venting so that it's away from the eyes of the parties concerned and I can help maintain my sanity πŸ‘

Orientation stuff 

Orientation stuff 

Orientation stuff 

Orientation stuff 

Orientation stuff 

Wait, bi people can't drive? But I'm bi and I can't drive!

Mental health issues, woo 

Mental health issues, woo 

Mental health issues, woo 

Mental health issues, woo 

Mental health issues, woo 

Am currently in the middle of trying to draw myself a new ref. Does anyone have any tips on drawing either the proportions of hourglass-shaped boys, or digitigrade legs from a front perspective?

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